"Isoro-Igbesi" is the Yoruba translation of Questions and Answers.
There have been times when all that one can do is to ask questions especially when being overwhelmed will so many activities or challenges in life. Sometimes, after asking those questions, it will seem like you can hear somewhere deep in your heart the answers.
This happened at a point in my life when it seemed all hope was lost and I was just ready to throw in the towel. I could not find the strength to pray and just concentrate while doing it. At this point, I knew there was only one thing to do; just talk to God. It was at this point I began to realize that there was no formal way to God. I simply applied Nike's popular slogan "Just Do It".
The following conversation ensued in my heart (my thoughts in bold blue):
Where are you Lord when I need You most?
I am here in your heart. I never left you. I am always before you,
right behind you and even by your side. I have always remained here with
you.
Why do I now feel alone and deserted most times?
It
is because you have allowed the cares of this work take over your trust
in God. You have trusted more in men than God. You have put everything
that concerns you in the hands of another that needs the help of God
also. Instead of God, you have sought their guidance. Hence, the
disappointment, the loveliness, the feeling of irrelevance. You have
been too far away dear child.
Lord, you know
I'm human and I struggle daily to find you. It's just so difficult to
seek you when everything seems to become overwhelming. I know I'm
supposed to be a Christian, an example unto others, always keeping my
focus on you, but for me, it's been easier said than done. Hebrews 12:2
asks that I keep my focus on Jesus.
How do I do that in such
overwhelming situations?
Everytime you feel overwhelmed, my child, read the Bible. Just open it up and read. There, you will always find me speaking to your heart. Don't try to fix anything. Let your joy come from me, not what anyone is doing to make you happy. I will give you rest.
Thank you Lord.