Tough Love

Tough Love
Why do people change?
Why do they treat love as just an euphoria?
Why is there no leverage?
Why does one have to do the surrender?
What happened to lasting love?
Why bother falling in love?


I am full of questions
Because in my heart i feel the hurt
I lack the right actions
Because my mind there is nought
But the clear signs and the difference
The change is my only inference


I am like an open book to you
Pouring out my mind always
I hold nothing back from you
Regardless of what you think of my ways
I do this without fear of loss
But with a deep sense of love


I know that it will only be a miracle
To be loved in the exact same measure
I also know love is immeasurable
Yet it is the feeling that I treasure
That the commitment and open heart
Will be my lot in my sojourn on earth

The Perks of Being a Writing Revolutionist

Well, i'm here again. Yeah, i know that i've hardly been here in a very long time and you're all wondering what's happening. It's been what now? Say five months, right? I can hear you think out loudly. You're thinking, 'but i read her post in February'. Well, i do remember trying to drop a few lines about love. I won't say i was lovetsruck. I guess i just stopped being afraid to tell the world how exactly i felt about that person i truly love and care for. Yeah! You just heard it, I'm in love. And it's sure a beautiful thing.

That's the end of that story. Now to a new one. Or did you think i will just go on giving you such privileged details? No way my dear! That's for another medium. Not a public space. I'm far too private.

I've been trying to write a novel since like forever. I think this thing called procrastination is getting the better of me. I have managed to scribble down the first few pages of the first chapter. The issue is that i have not learnt to put my thoughts together on the theme of the book. I will like to do something that is not normally Nigerian but incorporate the Nigerian setting into the whole plot. I hope you can reconcile that in your mind? (Trust me, it was hard for even my mind to sell such idea to me also)

I just read on SuddenlyMarketing (a very resourceful blog, by the way) about the best way to write. It says, Write drunk, edit sober. Check it out! http://www.suddenlymarketing.com/write-drunk-edit-sober-how-to-blog-like-you-mean-it/ I totally buy the idea! I remember writing once that the best way to write is to just write. It's just that everytime i decide to 'just write' i begin to think of what the other person might think of the copy if he/she saw that i was the one who did the writing. Well, SuddenlyMarketing must have thought about me when writing that post.

I have therefore decided that since it is all on my inside, i might as well just start writing without thinking about the technicality of the copy first and then edit like i'm the editor-in-chief of the whole world. I have not tried it but i believe it isn't a bad strategy because alcohol always brings out the real person in a drunk. In the same way, writing drunk and editing sober will help you communicate your deepest thoughts without fear of not hitting the target intended.

The best writers, i believe, have written because they believed that what they were writing was going to create a sort of revolution somehow and did not care about whom it will favour and whom it will not but whom it will change.

I want to change things! I want to change people positively! I want peace in the world! I will write like every person in the world is reading henceforth and not care a hoot what negativity is injected into my resolve! I will write and will win!

My B

My Baby, Brother, Boo and Best Friend

What more could I wish for in the world

How else should I ask to feel

Why should I pray that it stops

B, you're the reason for my joy

 

Love is indeed a beautiful thing

I never knew this was how it felt

Love for every song I sing

It is new heights I know I get

B, you're reason for my joy

 

For every smile I give out to the world

I know your thought brought it out

For every tear I cried to the world

Your perseverance sought it out

B, you're the reason for my joy

 

You must be an angel from above

God has never felt so dear and close

Just because with you I'm in love

My heart simply froze

B, you're the reason for my joy

Love and Life

Who said love isn't life

Who said love doesn't count

Who thinks life's good without love

Who thinks life's better without love

Who thinks life's best without love

What's the real essence of life

I'll tell you the essence of life

It's in the presence of love

It's in the ability to be oneself

The ability to figure oneself out

The ability to find peace within oneself

That's what love does

Love does give great pleasure

Love also causes great hurt

But, love never lies

It speaks for itself

It cannot be hid

Love shows itself forth always

Yes!

Love is in the heart

Love is also in the eyes

As the heart aches

So the eye tears

Love is physical yet spiritual

When I say "I Love You"

It is because I feel it deep

In the palpitations of my heart

When I say "I Love You"

It is because I see it in my eyes

That you're my only desire!

TRYING TIMES?

This past few months have been really some trying times for me. I have been struggling in different areas of my life and honestly, it has not been easy. Maybe it was because experience always brings out the best in me.

I've been saddled with the responsibility of talking about book of James for some time now and I was wondering what can I possibly say. Don't get me wrong, I could have easily conjured something up. I just didn't want it to be just another thought of mine. I wanted it to be something that everyone of us can relate with. I think I'm almost at that point now. I believe the time is right now though to put my experience and thoughts into words. Hold on tight.

I remember condemning folks about how disgraceful it was to misrepresent the person of our Lord Jesus Christ. Yes, I did that, in all my impeccable, righteous, "I can never fall" self. I hate to confess it, but, I've also been a disgrace! I've made a fool of His name. I've allowed my self fall into the snare of the enemy by letting the lust of heart take over the desires of God for my life. I've been so selfish and careless.

Then, God, in His everlasting kindness and mercy, gently brought emptiness into my spirit so that I could feel the void created by His absence in my life. I began to feel so sorry that I could not approach Him anymore. In His love, He said to my spirit, "count it all joy when you fall into temptations". I quickly picked up my Bible and turned to the book of James. It was there in James 1:2-3.

Trying times does not only mean financial difficulties, failing health, unsettled marriage etc. Trying times, as I've experienced, are times when we walked astray from God to do our own desires. It is that time when we struggle with our loyalty to Him. A time of standing, falling and standing again. It is such a time when we are of ourselves drawn away by our own lusts just to gratify our flesh. Yes, those are trying times.

Then, it makes me wonder why I should rejoice at such a time. It is clear now to me that a man of experience is a man of patience and wisdom. Overcoming trials makes us patient. We become wise because we have learnt from experience and will be able to relate in wisdom to others as to what their reaction will be. A soldier that has battle scars is the one that can be said to have faced the enemy squarely and triumphed. Yes, that is a man of trial!

Woohoo! I feel like preaching now! Patience is a virtue! Yes! When a man is patient, his decisions are not rash! He is the kind of man that "counts the cost" before reacting. Only that kind of man can be like David, "the heartbeat of God". Only that man can have true joy despite all that has happened to him. Only that man can know what it means to make a mistake and still be a winner. Only that man can say that the Christian race is truly an interesting one.

I'm getting really excited but will hold on in Patience and allow you digest all I've said today. Stay glued to this blog and get your mind blown away by the writings of James!