Love Unalloyed

Life has been quite interesting. Over the past two months I have learnt that life is more multi-dimensional than it actually seem. I've seen troubles, I've seen pains, I've experienced weakness, I've had the feeling that I was just inches away from death. Notwithstanding, I've experienced peace amidst the troubles, relief for my pains, strength when I should be most overwhelmed with weakness and a reason to live for each new day. It is not much of a testimony to other people, but, each time I remember the details of each day that has passed by, tears well up in my eyes in appreciation of God's goodness to me. And, yes, to my family also. I am all that I am because He is with me.

Even in my times of unfaithfulness, God has found me worthy of His matchless love. How humbled and naked I feel each time I go into His presence to seek His face. I wonder to myself, "how can One know your shortcomings so well and yet love you so unalloyed?". Even I do not have the answer to such a question.

A friend once asked, "does love really make you do things without reason?" Before I could answer, another friend of mine said, "Yes, as long as it is an unalloyed kind of love". I was about to say, "not always", when he cited an example I will only try very hard to forget but may never suceed at it. He said, "the purest kind of love is the love of a sinless for sinners that made him willing to die on a cross as a payment for their sins. Yet, this sinless man, Jesus, went ahead, without reason, while he was being taunted on the cross to say, "forgive them for they know not what they do". What love can be a better example?" In his opinion, as long as it is pure love, there is always no justification or reasons for acts done in love. I just had to throw the towel in and agree with him. Yes, I actually did! I concluded that, if we truly love those we love, they do not need to be good for us to be good to them. All we need is love.

Let us love like our very existence depended on it. Give like it is the only way our needs can be provided. And live like we may die the next minute. Above all, having a thankful heart goes a long way in filling our hearts with joy always!

NATURAL VACUUM

I have noticed one very interesting about everything natural, as long as it's not vacuum, cause vacuum in itself is natural. You're probably wondering what is so natural about vacuum. Well, you don't need any effort to create vacuum. Vacuum, another word for "vacant" or "void", just exists by itself. That aside, I'm not talking about vacuum today (topic for another day). Wikipedia has actually covered that part.

Back to nature, it's so refreshing and occupying that you will not notice time pass by and fast too. Life is just so beautiful. Or shall i say natural? We are so blessed to have nature.

Thoughtfulness

It's the end of the year and a time to be thankful. It's not easy to be thankful when it seems like you're always messing up. When you’re always the villain and others are always the victim. Especially at times when the people who you're with say they love and appreciate you but don't even make an extra effort to show you just how much.

How can one be thankful in such a situation?

While I want to write a really long list of things I am thankful for cause the Bible asks that we be thankful no matter what the world throws at us, I will briefly as much as I can think of start and end it somewhere.

Here goes:
Things I'm thankful for:
1. For life. Oxygen is expensive,yet I get it free.
2. For sound mind. I could have gone crazy but I'm here.
3. For strength. I don't know where it comes from but I just keep going.
4. For intellect.

5. For Aremo. The one I'm stuck to forever.

6. For Ayomikun. The one reason for me to keep going. I feel like I'm just 'undeservingly' blessed. Perfect his Healing Lord.
7. For provision.
8. For my brother and sister.
9. For my mum and dad.
10. For the Word of God. My companion in a long time.
11. That all my limbs, cells and organs are in good condition.

12. That even when I go berserk on my husband I still have the common sense not to go to bed angry.
13. That I have a job. Though I've not exactly been an example of the perfect employee.
14. For showing me how irrelevant I am in making things right.
15. For having a reason at all to be thankful.

I didn't think I'd write this much so I guess there are actually reasons to keep going on.

Isoro-Igbesi

"Isoro-Igbesi" is the Yoruba translation of Questions and Answers.

There have been times when all that one can do is to ask questions especially when being overwhelmed will so many activities or challenges in life. Sometimes, after asking those questions, it will seem like you can hear somewhere deep in your heart the answers.

This happened at a point in my life when it seemed all hope was lost and I was just ready to throw in the towel. I could not find the strength to pray and just concentrate while doing it. At this point, I knew there was only one thing to do; just talk to God. It was at this point I began to realize that there was no formal way to God. I simply applied Nike's popular slogan "Just Do It". 

The following conversation ensued in my heart (my thoughts in bold blue):
Where are you Lord when I need You most?
I am here in your heart. I never left you. I am always before you, right behind you and even by your side. I have always remained here with you.

Why do I now feel alone and deserted most times? 

It is because you have allowed the cares of this work take over your trust in God. You have trusted more in men than God. You have put everything that concerns you in the hands of another that needs the help of God also. Instead of God, you have sought their guidance. Hence, the disappointment, the loveliness, the feeling of irrelevance. You have been too far away dear child.

Lord, you know I'm human and I struggle daily to find you. It's just so difficult to seek you when everything seems to become overwhelming. I know I'm supposed to be a Christian, an example unto others, always keeping my focus on you, but for me, it's been easier said than done. Hebrews 12:2 asks that I keep my focus on Jesus. 

 

How do I do that in such overwhelming situations?

Everytime you feel overwhelmed, my child, read the Bible. Just open it up and read. There, you will always find me speaking to your heart. Don't try to fix anything. Let your joy come from me, not what anyone is doing to make you happy. I will give you rest.

 

‎Thank you Lord.

Tough Love

Tough Love
Why do people change?
Why do they treat love as just an euphoria?
Why is there no leverage?
Why does one have to do the surrender?
What happened to lasting love?
Why bother falling in love?


I am full of questions
Because in my heart i feel the hurt
I lack the right actions
Because my mind there is nought
But the clear signs and the difference
The change is my only inference


I am like an open book to you
Pouring out my mind always
I hold nothing back from you
Regardless of what you think of my ways
I do this without fear of loss
But with a deep sense of love


I know that it will only be a miracle
To be loved in the exact same measure
I also know love is immeasurable
Yet it is the feeling that I treasure
That the commitment and open heart
Will be my lot in my sojourn on earth